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~~♥ The Girl's Diary ♥~~
Sunday, September 2, 2007

It's hurt!

I told myself Im not going svc anymore..But I still went with Mae just now; giving myself some hope that the lord would minister to me once again. But my heart wasn't there though..I had this lukewarm feelings towards Him..it just hurts..I felt like turning back one moment as the song "God of my forever" sang again, and all of e sudden I miss the time serving him in the ministry.. But I really dun Know..I feel lost in this relationship. I feel backsliding...

So many things that I couldn comprehend; what pple are thinking... As long they feel that one is still with God, they will not bother about the things he/she is going through. Until one has backslided or not appear in church for very long, pple start searching n caring then. Are pple more concern about us going to church/cg more than our spiritual being nowadays? By then will it be too late n difficult to peel off those layers upon layers of hurts that have laid harden n solidified? I wonder if it matters to God that I turn back to Him again...But if He dosn even bother, why should I bother?


The DIVA ♥