Step out!
Wana thank God for the opportunity to be the Chinese new Year Event IC. Very thankful for my colleague's help to provide some ideas. It took me quite some time to plan the proposal, and realised that I am not a good organiser. Ha..that is not my strength..Although I've done most of the plannings and written work, I still didn't feel satisfied and fulfillment. My colleague partner is also the one who's afraid to speak in a big group. She asked me to present the proposal during the meeting. Wah, stress! I knew I'm afraid and that's my weakness too. But I told myself n God that I wana breakthrough. I wana step out. I wana change. I dun want to remain where I am. The more I fear, the more I must do it and train myself. Hence, I told my colleague ok, I shall do it..Really so stress.. But I tried not to be so self-conscious and finally I've done my speech! In the midst, I still didn't feel good. Haiz...Im not sure why. I felt inconfidence while presenting cos I think I still keep having this in mind that a junior teacher is sharing what to do for the event to the senior teachers. After the meeting, I asked mag for feedback and she said that I was just soft and gentle. Sigh..I rem I have tried to raise up my voice leh...But I knew my nature character just came out this way at that time..Didn't feel good afterall. I was telling God, with me this kind of character, How to do "big job"?
But Im glad that at least I've stepped out la! Yep! Thanks for the courage and Give God the glory!
