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~~♥ The Girl's Diary ♥~~
Sunday, March 23, 2008

Wah.. so long that I'ven been blogging..Life's been so busy forever..wana take a break also difficult..I really need to have more entertainments now..Haha..but can I? kK..anyway just wana upload this photo of my funny cutie boy n write a short blog here..

This is Neo Heng Wei, 10 years old, diagnosed with autism. An aloof passive boy but rather expressive n emotional.. His chuckle smile is Cute Hah! Hehe..Will lighten your day when you see his behaviour, but sometimes can be frustrating when he's always in his "off" mood.

He is suppose to play his toys at the Play area n keep His toys into the white finished basket that I just bought for him. On the 2nd trial of using the basket, this is what I've caught him at the area. Hahaha...

Heng Wei has "finished"! Hahaha!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Blog is the only person who never fail to be my listener..Becos it has no choice..Haha...
As we grow older, find it so hard to have someone who's willing to listen..Everybody is so eager to talk but forgot about someone who just needs them to slow down abit and step in to share..

Was getting more stress as the burden about my job n career keep coming in my mind when sitted at the service yday..I was very distracted..I couldn't help but my face just changed out of sudden after service..Just for that moment I wished pple to approach and pray for me to release my burden n find peace in God..But people drew away and stepped back when a face without a smile was seen..I guess that is very human..

Thank God for that call from a sensitive leader; a leader from another cell..Just that call that enabled me to just at least talk things out instead of bottle up everything inside me..though there's still no solution, Im just glad to talk to a leader..guess that is all i need...

A verse to encourage myself, ya...Rom8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Seek first His kingdom and all things shall be added onto you.
Friday, March 7, 2008

Really wana thank God for the week has over..Dunno why everytime I do project, I will never fail to have problem with computer..Days have been really hectic for the past few weeks besides dealing with projects..After weeks of struggles with matthew, i really couldn't take it anymore. We had a training with an invited pyschologist during the meeting just now. After the meeting, my head support asked me "so does today's meeting helps and applys to us?" I couldn't help but to tell her this, " actually I need help.." I almost break down when I told her but I held on my tears. I was surprised that before I said anything, she's already aware of my this extreme severe pupil..

This is my first time that I break down becos of my pupil. Feeling devastated. I couldn't manage..I thot I could suggest him to do a transfer as this school is not suitable for Intellecture disability pupils. But things dosn't seem to be so easy..I dunno how after this one week holiday when term 2 starts..Suddenly feel teaching is so tough now and there are so many things that's going to do n happen.Arhha...God..I need help..I need patience, wisdom, understanding, love for matthew once again n send people to help me..Sob....Very very stress...

But Im glad I came for gell group. Though Im not feeling good emotionally, I could still praise God n worship Him and I felt great. After hearing shuzhen n a bro from another cg's testimony, they made me reflect on my life and I think I have testi too.. Hehe..Ya, I learnt from pastor that to come for such mtg (may it be svc or cg), it is to minister to God n not just being ministered by God. Today, I experience both..really great.. Came to understand one thing; As I worship Him with a heart of giving n not just receiving, my faith is built. Becos I learnt to truely know who he is in my life. With that, I could begin to find rest in Him. My breakthrough is, though life's still stress n problem's still remain, I could still trust n love him even more instead of getting bitter. And I think with this love, Im really contented for just having Him with me in my life. I no longer have the thought of suicided n having depression. Instead, I do see that I have so much things to do in my life and with the Lord, the joy has live in me.

But I couldn't share these with others..Can someone share for me on my behalf? Haha..

The DIVA ♥