<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/3301588633881214642?origin\x3dhttp://orh-hor.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
~~♥ The Girl's Diary ♥~~
Tuesday, April 29, 2008

I said I wana seek God for who he is in my life. I wana find Him in my situation. Find revelation. Seek Him for my life..Until I know my next move..know what to do..But after much brokenness before God for the past few weeks, Im not sure if it is becos I have learnt to accept that this is what God allows me to be in now and i shall let things be, or I have just learnt to trust God for the next miracle to breakthrough. When ones soul is broken, it really affects everything u do..the way you respond to others, the way you behave and the way you do things.. Nevertheless, Im still trying to place others needs before me for the past few weeks..But subsequently, I guess it has become a "sweep under the carpet" issues of my situation. When I have to think about these stuff that I'm facing, fears creep in..Because I really couldn't get my thoughts through. There is burden that I can't get rid off..
Wednesday, April 16, 2008

They keep emphasize on professionalism, yet not able to train teachers. It's all walk the walk, talk the talk..My trust to them has already gone..really upset..why is it that everytime I thought i wana plan to work some things out but at the end the outcome always not the way I plan..Pastor shared that if we fail to plan , we plan to fail...but so then what is this..? Though I've been hesitating..but actually in my heart I really wanted it very much..I want to go through it once and for all n not holding back anymore..But now I dun have to hesitate anymore..really disappointed..When is my boat going to reach the shore? where should I heading to now? What is the next step I should take? Wait passively n serve faithfully for another year til my turn to come? "You are faithful..your joy is my strength.." God, Im listening...this song I sing to you. You know, I don't mind waiting..But I just wana hear you speak..
Sunday, April 13, 2008

After trying so hard, I started to question myself, what am I doing all these for? I am actually not happy..But I try not to live with this unhappiness. I try not to think about it..There are so many things that I thought I can work it out.. and I compromise.. I try to move on when I really dun feel like doing it..But at the end of it, everything is really so meaningless...I feel like redrawing....again...but it's not the correct way..avoiding is not a mature way of handling...but I couldn't handle neither..:'(

The DIVA ♥