Actually...Man can be created n meant to be alone..At least I feel Iam..Becos with God's love, everything is sufficient..If God had Not loved us so much that he gave man a partner, perhaps some people may Not need to feel so troubled by it...Just becos this world is bounded by the cycle of going through the stage of courtship, marriage then family etc, we are preasurized, envied n influenced by such culture.
"I don't deserve all these that you have done for me..I don't intent to take it for granted too..It is Not that I dun care or appreciate..But I just couldn't help to respond in such a way when I don’t feel things rite and comfortable...I Just need some time n space to accept things. I believe a relationship needs to start with a good friendship, and a relationship Can be developed with time, though I still feel mutual is important..But while developing the friendship, we still need to understand, draw a line or being sensitive for the acts and give each other time n space, isn’t it? I can understand how it feels when a man found one who has no mutual to him. These few days I've been praying n asking God how to handle these people who seems serious in this friendship. I sincerely appologise. When I see the hurts, I really feel very sorry. I feel bad, upset…Becos It is really Not meant to be this way..I mean I really don’t want it to be this way…I really just wana to enjoy the friendship..."
I really wonder If God has anything beta for me..When I look back in my life journey, I really feel I’ve fought an empty battle. I’ve received nothing, I still could not understand things which I knew it is not meant for me to understand anyway, I could Not find what I’ve been searching, nevertheless, I knew one thing; God has taught me how to be just feel contented in him, still love him and accept things that he has planned for me. But...
2 Cor 12: 9 And he said to me, “ My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”
